A Bowl of Popcorn

Last Saturday. 4 days ago my oldest sister finally got married. I say finally because each step of her relationship seemed to drag on and on. Even the step before he was in her life. In each section, whether it be friendship, courtship or engagement everyone involved looked forward to the next. But now she has reached the final stage and is married to a guy she's completely in love with. For her I can only assume it's bliss! For me however, it feels weird.

     
for the longest time while she was engaged we said not much would change, “she’s never around anyway”. But I’m realizing now that’s not necessarily true. There’s all those families you meet and think you know, then find out later they have an older sibling who you’ve never even heard of. That’s gonna be us. New people we meet will assume Katie is the oldest. There’s no longer the Watt 10. No free ride into work. Only 4 girls will fight for the bathroom etc. Etc. None of them are big things, but they add up. Like right now I'm eating a bowl of popcorn and it feels so strange, Melody and I always make and eat popcorn together. Not the fake microwave stuff, the kind you have to cook on the stove, that's a real pain but so worth it. I’m not sad that things are changing but things are changing. It may end up being exactly what our family needs But that doesn't make it easy to adjust.

This isn't the first big change that has happened lately and with starting up my senior year next week, I know there's more to come...no matter what I do to try and stop it...


Dear Change, we meet again. I'm learning these encounters are impossible to avoid as your tactics are completely unpredictable. Some times you attack suddenly and strike quickly. Others you advance slowly letting me have time to contemplate my doom. Either way the blow is sharp. After all these years I've met my match and surrender myself .
     If my pride may have one dying wish it is that you deal with me gently, I see slowly is not an option. I dare not hope to see the day I do not shudder in your presence but if I could one day see the beauties in you great beast I could be an even greater servant, happily singing your praises. My request does not require an answer. I am certain Time will tell me in your stead.  
      I'll remain until our next meeting
     
      Yours respectfully,

      Lorain Blackwell